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Thursday, June 3, 2010
Whirlwind
Finally back at work and ok. Apparently I over-did it with the amount of company, up to 11 at one night, meals, laundry, for 4 days staying with us, working full time, the funeral, keeping all four grand babies on the tail end of that - after everyone left Saturday morning the daughter called and they were going out of town supposedly - last minute, so I felt I needed to try to keep them. She picked them up Sunday around lunch time and she had no sooner left then I had another wave of people come by. We were off on Monday for the holiday but it was spent cleaning and resting - and I refused to host a cook out for the kids - much to their dismay. I have spent the last two days dizzy, nauseous, and although my stomach was empty after having rushed to the restroom and emptying it - I could not even keep water down.
I left work yesterday morning so dizzy I wasn't sure if I'd make it home - but did, slept for an hour, came back to work and after work last night went straight in to bed. I think I slept 13 hours last night. I feel pretty good today.
My biggest regret is not having been able to get to Adr, my best friend. She was RIGHT HERE. In from Atlanta for a funeral in her family... And again, I kick myself for putting everyone before me and not standing up for what I want, and now I'm too sick and run down to try to do anything productive. But some day I may learn.
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