Is It Possible ?

I look back now, having made choices for ME, and I wonder, is it really possible to move forward and start your life again today? I want to look forward to tomorrow. I want to enjoy my husband. Is it possible to to be happy and still know the everyday struggles may never go completely away ? I want to believe. Tapping my ruby slippers together never worked for me. I want it to be possible that "There's no place like home" actually brings a smile to my face. I want to make my home OUR home - not the kids, not the ex wives, not the grandchildren. I want my turn for once. I want to be able to come home and it be about ME and not the others. I want it to be MY domain for crying out loud. I want to give things an honest shot - and I want to be able to disregard every one's hurt feelings.

Picture blog

Pappa and our princess 2005 Night of our engagement 2005

This was one of our Christmas trees this year

Tiny one of winter 07 - this morning everything was covered in ice, real pretty but my camera was at work.

Santa was very good to me this year

Haven't done this in a while...will do picture blogs again since I'm finally back on..

Duchess

We got hammered by an ice storm last night. Our goat Duchess went into labor, Steve was on call, we lost power, I got zero sleep- until 6 this morning, then overslept, Steve got called out 3 times - and we delivered 4 beautiful baby goats ! My daughter posted a slanderous blog about me and my husband and son, referring to me as her biological mother...(snicker snicker)......oh Hell, I have to laugh - if you knew the hell I've been through in the last 7 days - not shaking any more - still no meds, but this is funny. Will post pictures as soon as I can get to them.

Shannon's World Updated

Oh boy. Where do I begin?

Kara and Thomas moved in the day after I moved back home. Yeah. 23 year old adolescent teenager - and a hormonal teen pregnant - and lost. Then Anita and Brad moved in, along with Jeidyn and Macenzie and Farrah and of course Bryton is living with us.

So Steve and I have not had 'us' time that we promised each other.

Another thing that has happened in my life recently was death. Our nephew John Paul was murdered this summer - 26 years old, wife, two small children and a little girl on the way. It was devastating.

Then one of my first cousins died suddenly, and we traveled to southern Arkansas for that funeral.

Then Blaze - my best dog I've ever had followed Thomas' dog out to the highway and was hit by a car trying to save the other dog.

Then a driver and dear friend had a sudden heart attack and died. New wife, very sad.

And finally (hopefully) Breanna's (my future step-daughter in law) mother passed away one month after they found out she had cancer. She died Christmas Day. 43 years old.

Christmas night, Dad called from Texas, they put him in ICU with a growth in his Aorta in his heart - so its been really scary around here. He is out now, but they do not know what the growth is.

If anything, I have learned that life is short, and death unexpected, and I know we need to be prepared.

I have been trying to buckle down and study "A Purpose Driven Life", a 40 day study - they only recommend one chapter a day, and I am VERY pleased with what I have read so far. Its not self help - its not a guide - it is making you think, and makes you put YOUR life in perspective. I have become much more peaceful since I began this study.

Here is the most recent picture of Steve and I -

Will begin posting again on this site now.