Weighty Issues

Touchy and very sensitive subjects for me I normally do not post about, but this one I'm going out on a limb, because I think if I put myself out there, then I'll have all the more reason to stick to it.

Diabetes and thyroid disease is prominent on the maternal side of our family. And with this, comes weight issues.

I am tested regularly for diabetes, and have previously been on thyroid medication. The levels in my blood balanced out again, and they took me off of them.

I had lost nearly 32 lbs, and felt wonderful. No back problems AT ALL. Energy you would not believe. Of course, my routine was completely different, and I was on the run everyday - (come to think of it, I'm on the run everyday still).

Within one year of having been taking off all medications, I regained the weight. No changes in diet, no changes in routine.

Last year, I became very ill, and after a round of different doctors, I finally landed with an internal specialist. When he read my charts from the hospital, he was puzzled as to why the had not admitted me. Apparently there was more wrong with me than they told. They sent me home from the ER and told me to pick up some Pepcid AC on the way. Not being able to walk (hmmm, you'd think that would have told them something...), and just coming off of a severe allergic reaction to whatever they had me drink, they sent me home. Steve all but carried me to the car, mother trailing behind, and they put me to bed at home. Once I got to the specialist, we started from top to bottom, blood tests, urine tests, ultrasounds, chest Xrays. Thankfully, I was straightened back out again...much on my own, since I couldn't get in to see him for so long and spent two weeks on water and bread and an occasional bite of this or that - but the water saved me - I had apparently had a severe kidney infection, and the water had flushed it out, and the fever subsided after two days on its own.

7 months ago, I began having odd sensations in by limbs, and dizzy spells and very tired all of the time. I went back to the Dr, and he said these were anxiety attacks. I had been having an awful time at home, moved out, the holidays were awful, and I had overdone it. So more meds.

We discussed at that time that my thyroid levels were out of whack, but lets take care of this problem first, then we'll discuss the other.

I feel much better, have been knocking my portions of food down to 1/2 of what I would normally eat, but no change in weight. When I went to see him last month, I HAD lost 2 lbs, but I am afraid that was by accident - and now I am going back in three and a half weeks.

I am making a goal of 32 lbs within the next 8 months. I know that the thyroid has so much to with this, with my lack of energy, and the weight gain, but for my own sake, I'm going to grill everything, more salad, less bread and potatoes, and see where I am then.

I don't' EVER talk about my weight - I'm ashamed of it, and I feel like a huge cow - thus - lack of pictures of me at ANY family function..but more so - I want to do it for health and the grand babies...

So, keep your fingers crossed, and I've started today.