I'm here at work today, trying to get a grasp on everything around me. It is true that I made the decision to stand firm and move forward. It is true that I made the decision to remove myself from the path of drama when concerning one individual. What is not clear, or should I say, what I am wrestling with currently is the shifting sand surrounding the situation.
The only solution I can muster up, is to sit back and watch the latest and greatest events unfold and let him shoulder the complete burden. When he is unable to deflate the situation, and turns to me for assistance, I will have to let him stand alone. The conflict comes in my decision to be his wife, and stand beside him...and I struggle with letting him fall, which he will, as he has many times when crushed in these situations. But I can't live honestly and still condone the behavior, so all I can come up with is allow it to happen, not intervene, not make suggestions, refuse to go out of my way, and reject requests for financial help.
This may make me a 'bad' wife, but I can't allow those circumstances which are out of my control break me down again.
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