For as long as I can remember - or for as long as I can still feel what it was like to hurt so deeply, it seems that I have constantly thrown up barriers around me in an attempt to divert the honesty of the pain.
It appears I was very good at it, and so many memories are gone, and so many situations that I know I survived with minimal scarring have not shown themselves to me until too late. I have buried many things down deep.
In prospective of the last two weeks, I have juggled back and forth my feelings and my surroundings and my past.
A situation has come up that demands attention. The oh so familiar pang of fear, the insecurity, the unknown. Yet what was once dissolved has resurfaced and I am VERY aware that everything in my life has happened for a purpose, and I feel that this situation too has a reason. I don't want to turn away from it, or be afraid, I want to be strong and live this through beginning to end, wherever that may lead me.
2 comments:
I hope your daughter's situation improves significantly. No one should feel threatened. I came to invite you to link your blog to our Arkansas Bloggers group that is forming. It's arkansasbloggers.blogspot.com
Thank you. Everything seems up in the air, I continue to keep the grandchildren because the most important thing right now for them is stability. I'm tired, but regardless of everything else, they have to be kept on somewhat of a schedule and know that they are loved.
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