Little Moments (1)

Mother and I have decided to spend the weekend in Greenbrier. The moving company will be there Monday to load Granddaddy's things but will not move anything that isn't already in boxes. This will likely be the last move for him, which is sad, but is also a relief and he is so excited that all seems well. The horrible part comes when we go back to get the car from him. I do not look forward to that one. He is such an independent soul, but it has come to the point of danger, having learned that he was involved in a car accident and didn't remember any of it. I spent most of the afternoon yesterday resting. The house was clean when I got home, and again it was completely empty. I sat on the deck for a while and watched the squirrels and cardinals flit around and feed, with as much energy as the boys did a few days ago when we had our first sunny warm day. I told mother that I would probably run the vacuum through Bryton's room but was pleasantly surprised that it was completely spotless. He had even emptied his wastebasket and dusted his entertainment center. I was proud. This is not a difficult task, but an amazing one for this child. He is getting older I suppose, and thankfully more aware of his surroundings. Such the little protector. He HATES it when I call him little. He is far from it. Last night he came into my room after I had fallen asleep and woke me up. "Mom, you really should close your window shouldn't you ?" He was home all night but I think he was making sure I was still safe. I drank my coffee this morning out on the deck too. This is my new quiet place that I have settled in to. I watched the kids waiting at their bus stops, giggling and jumping around. Waved to mother as she pulled out of her driveway on her way to work. Looked at the time, and yes, I needed to leave for the office. I only live within 6 minutes, which is so much nicer...although I prefer to live in rural areas. Its just so convenient to be so close to everything though. I have spent many weeks soul searching. I have come to some pretty important decisions. I have gone to the core of my feelings and thoughts and am ready to move forward, finally. I have gained inner strength and will land on both feet. I feel lighter, and healthier and happier than I have in a very long time. Tough decisions I have been forced to make have recently have been rewarding. It was worth it. I am discovering that one moment at a time is all we can live sometimes. Baby steps.